:: Captain's Personal Blog ::

Stardate: Thursday, January 31, 2002

Why is it that I feel the need to be protective of other people that I work with? My boss says that I am an enabler. He's not the only one who has used that term, but usually it refers to my doling out of chocolate. Tonight, he meant something different.

Tonight I was asked to help cut tape for our DAILY BUSINESS SHOW. I said that I would. I was supposed to help from 3pm - 4pm, and then at 4 I was supposed to start getting mywork together so I could do it at 5. The problem was that I couldn't leave at 4 a planned.

The girl who I was helping was definitely in over her head and couldn't have finished on time. If I had left when I was supposed to, she would have crashed and then she would have gotten in trouble for not getting the work done. The only problem is that it wouldn't have been her fault. I felt that I couldn't let that happen, so I stayed.

Was that wrong? I know she has to fight her own battles, and that I shouldn't feel responsible for her, but God help me, I would want someone to help me. It's not fair. I know that life isn't fair, but that shouldn't stop us from trying to make it that way. How could I, in good conscience, leave someone to just get in trouble if I can do something about it? Granted, I was pushed behind in my work and couldn't get the help that I needed, but that wasn't her fault. The work that I was asked to do didn't exist. The only thing that would have happened had I left on schedule was that I would have been able to ask my producers what to do. Unfortunately, they left early, so I couldn't ask.

So, I spoke to my boss about it, and he seems OK with the whole thing. Except he seems a bit disappointed in my decision to stay and help. I know it wasn't my responsibility, but what could I do? I think I would have been very disappointed in myself if I had left. *sigh* Some times these moral quandries can drive you insane. Ah well.

Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! Big show day. I know I haven't explained EXACTLY what it is I do yet, but I'm sure people who may or may not have been reading are coming to their own conclusions. I'll fill in the blanks soon. Just not up to it yet.
:: J 6:19 PM [+] ::
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